The Great Fall

Well suppose to type in my feeling yesterday night but was too depressed to actually type it all out and too tired too.

Firstly, yesterday i really drop the investment thingy with Mr X. It was after so long of preparation for like 3 months plus and also $$ when i take cab back home from cab or rush back from outside and scarifice really so much of my time and effort and just 1 confirmation everything is gone.

In fact, from the start, he has no ability to start it and i was foolish to lend him $$ for him to tide over his difficulty. In addition, there are times when false hope was given and i decided to wait and polish my skills again and again just to finally upset when everything was gone. I felt "cheated" and when i told him about the ending scenario he just said well must keep in contact.

I was in fury but hold back my anger for i wish to remain calm on this matter. One of my friend suddenly ponder and hold back the plan to work with me causing me in stress too. Although there is one person who called me and show interest in my investment partnership, it seems that i may not work out but still i do not wish to pin so much hope on it. but sometimes, people do just pin on their ideal project and the sadness is undescrible.

For my case, it is really freaky painful experience beacause imagine everday when you are back from camp and the first thing u do is to monitor everything with regards to stock and to realise that after 3 months of extreme hard work, everything is gone and worst still not back to square one but even far behind stuff. All the hopes, losses and dreams or aspiration just vanished . Solutions are gone but uncertainity and great damages remain. I felt so depressed, frustrated, sad and really so angrY!!

well perhaps that all till now



President RayOz

Investment Partnership

It has been a long time since i updated my blog again once more. Recently felt really sad and thus decided to again update my blog! btw suppose to update in the blog which is shared by Jamie and I but then i forget the link and password and the worst thing is she also forget lOlx so i guess i have to update here. lOng time no see her and her reply so if u see my BLog pls msg me ok!

First of all, i have received a sms from nithya i suppose and she is flying back to India and will be back in Dec which is a long time. Studies in Saint Francis Methodist School is a unique experience for him. Although I think the school management is disastrous and the teaching quality really cannot make it in many sense, i still find considerable number of nice and high quality teacher and the environment is great.

Somehow, i think that students from my this schools or perhaps from my class is especially hardworking and determined to succeed. Many have gone overseas to study and other came back to study in local university. It is quite an 'undescrible" experience because it seems so global kinda feeling.

Dunnoe y suddenly feel like there is a lot to write since it is year 2008 after a year plus of no updating.


Today, yet another disappointing note from Mr X who decided to cancel today’s meeting. The time for the fund to come in is still unknown and this is really a great psychological torment to me.

While I understand his predicament, the whole partnership has dragged from the initial start date of March to now ending of May without much definite start date. This is due to disagreement between much of the potential investors who perhaps has doubts on my credential.

I have been using the simulation programme for a long time and everything is fine and profitable. I was told that the simulation programme is exactly the same as the real trading condition, hence i guess my trading system is profitable... but still lack investors.

Have been really wanted to start soon but all this while things are not really smooth for this partnership but still i hold on to it and hope for the best to come. Sometimes, i really want to end this partnership with Mr X with a stern tone but then worry that I could not find other ppl to join me. It is so tiring after all to go thru all this.

Moreover, it is frustating to see each profitable trade and day with the end result of earning only virtual cash. This is so ..... haiz dunnoe how to describle lOlx..


University Admission

Until now, I have received 2 rejection letters from SMU and NTU, of which both stress on stiff competition. Well, i have really worked hard for my retake last year and is perhaps my best shot. I was thinking that even without the acceptance from local uni, i could progress with my investment thingy but now things look so bleak, lost a lot of things. Firstly, i postphone my taking of SAT in order to work on this partnership. In addition, i rejected many outing offers and dilligently spend my time examining the market condition, constantly trying to figure out a better trading system.

Every now and then, I have tried to put in a lot of effort and i am sure I am quite determined in achieveing what i aim for; but recently happening prove otherwise. I remain stagnant for so long despite so much effort put in.

Perhaps I have a wrong method of working hard or I was already on the wrong path?

Really tired now sia haiz.

Saw the news on Sichuan. it is really saddening to see so many people suffering out there and i suddenly tot if i could have start the investment and really earn $$, perhaps i can fork out $$ to assist them. Sometimes, life is so uncertain and perceived to be unfair.

To end, I will like to make some wishes:

I wish I wish I wish
I wish that the people affected by Sichuan earthquake will receive the best resources they need
I wish I wish I wish

I wish I wish I wish
I wish that my investment partnership will work out next week so that I can fulfill my dream of earning my first million before 20 years old
I wish I wish I wish

- President RayOz