The Great Fall

Well suppose to type in my feeling yesterday night but was too depressed to actually type it all out and too tired too.

Firstly, yesterday i really drop the investment thingy with Mr X. It was after so long of preparation for like 3 months plus and also $$ when i take cab back home from cab or rush back from outside and scarifice really so much of my time and effort and just 1 confirmation everything is gone.

In fact, from the start, he has no ability to start it and i was foolish to lend him $$ for him to tide over his difficulty. In addition, there are times when false hope was given and i decided to wait and polish my skills again and again just to finally upset when everything was gone. I felt "cheated" and when i told him about the ending scenario he just said well must keep in contact.

I was in fury but hold back my anger for i wish to remain calm on this matter. One of my friend suddenly ponder and hold back the plan to work with me causing me in stress too. Although there is one person who called me and show interest in my investment partnership, it seems that i may not work out but still i do not wish to pin so much hope on it. but sometimes, people do just pin on their ideal project and the sadness is undescrible.

For my case, it is really freaky painful experience beacause imagine everday when you are back from camp and the first thing u do is to monitor everything with regards to stock and to realise that after 3 months of extreme hard work, everything is gone and worst still not back to square one but even far behind stuff. All the hopes, losses and dreams or aspiration just vanished . Solutions are gone but uncertainity and great damages remain. I felt so depressed, frustrated, sad and really so angrY!!

well perhaps that all till now



President RayOz