Will there be hope

hi,

its has been a long time since i blog . Today, i went for a meeting to initiate my project. It requires a deposit amount which is seriously a big drain to my finance. However, I feel that there is prospect in the business which i hope to establish presence in.

However, i am not too sure if other areas requires deposit as well which is indeed a big problem. I hope to be able to do without deposit in other areas so that i can tide over the difficult period. Furthermore, I have not take tuition from one of my student cuz i seriously think he is not learning although i knew i need the money badly.

I have many bills to pay seriously and i am wondering if i should really venture into that area. Recently, my mind condition continues to worsen and i really feel like giving up. I have tried so many ways to start the programs and many uncertainity ahead. However, I cant be hopeful as things are so tough. I have many things to worry other than my own problems.

Please show me a way.

Ray