Another Sad day

haha this blog must be really depressing to have so many depressing post.

Today, went to school to clear some doubts and do some business liasing. Suddenly feel so sad, i misread something and realise it is not so easy to clinch deal. Sometimes in business things look hopeful, sometimes, it just turn back and seems impossible. But after awhile, you realise that you can achieve it and the cycle keeps going.

It is like roller coaster and you may not get numb of it. Yet, we have to endure as we still stay hopeful that one day we are able to make it. Things are not turning too well for me....

what's more can i say.......

President RayOz

Rise of Fall

It's has been a long time since i blog again.

It is near the date to present my proposal, yet I have not received a confirmation from partner side. Haiz, it seems like things are getting tough and the chances of another business is bleak.

There are so many worries and doubts.

May angels guide me...

RayOz

The Hope for the better

Recently, I have tried to clinch another deal however it is not the same as before.

My current business is dying serious for this time. Sometimes, things aren't easy. When everything seems so hopeful, it will be gone is such a short preiod of time. Its like a roller coaster ride that never ends for our heart will continue to pursue our "dream" that seems so far and unrealistic.

Btw, i realise that there is someone who left comment. I do hope to know this person and thanks for the comment.


Ray

Another Setback

Right now, although some of the rooms are boarded up, there seems to be another problem.

THe rent for the next month is coming up and then also the house is not fully occupied and the rent collected could be of huge problem too. Right now, I believe this project could no longer generate huge profit at the moment. I guess I have to really think of other way as this project is an on-going burden.

Haiz very tiring that such things keep on happening! Please help!!

God Bless Buddha Loves!

RayOz

New Project

Halo everyone ( if there is anyone reading this blog)
Recently, the company has intention to venture into another area perhaps student hostel. However, right now there is a need to find new area to accomodate such number of students. There are also new problems in the present boarding house. The new project will require additional funding to make it a success. However, the expected profit margin for this boarding house is expected to be low as we have to perhaps fork out a large portion of money for other usage.

Right now, I really hope to be able to see the business on the right track and see profit coming in to reduce and overcome the initial cost. If not, it will really be a bad choice to do the boarding house.

May there be angels enlightening us the path ....

President RayOz

Ray at the tunnel

Hi all
The boarding house is like no longer boarding house because we have decided to lease out most of the rooms but not boarders.

This drastic measures has helped us to reduce our losses and re-stabilise our crippling balance sheet although it is still in the red. Despite that, more rooms have to be leased out to further reduce the bleeding losses.

In the mean time, we are trying to link up with foreign side to see if there is any students coming in since things on our agent looks pretty bad at the moment. I guess this boarding house profit will be little to zero after the drastic measures taken.

God please help to revitalise our plan and make this boarding house a success.

Many there be ray at the end of each darkness....

President Rayoz

Brink of Collapse

This blog till now has always filled with great sad account of my life.

The boarding house loan from friend continues to take a toll on me. I am facing a great stress from all walks of life and the greater pressure to get at least the principal sum by end of this month. Sometimes, i really feel damn sad and do not know who to trust.

My situation is very chaotic with little hope and yet things are getting worser each day. How am i going to face everyone. I am damn depressed and really cant hold much longer le. Please someone out there pls help me tide over... i am really fully exhausted to the maximum le.

Can anyone hear my sorrow; frustrated, agony, sad, afraid, these combination is really draining me to the fullest.

How am i going to survive?

Please god; direct me to open a road to solution, please assist me..

i really at dead end, if only a door opens for me.....

The Great Depression Crisis

hi
this time round i am really in the world deepest shit. i am unable to pay my debt of 15k which is mounting so high and so much till i suffocating.

i really have to jump this time... really haiz

Money and Personal Crisis

Hi there

this is yet another disappointing post. Recently, I ventured into the boarding house of which part of the money actually comes from my friend side. I agree to pay him a sum of $750 as compensation for late payment but now i am in dead shit as i have to make payment by end of August 2008 which means i have about 3 days including transferring the fund.

Haiz, if this time i cant manage to solve the crisis and make the payment, the consequences will be far greater than that of the trading crisis which i manage to tide over. Today, went to the guan yin temple in Bugis to pray. I realise that i am actually quite bad cuz i will only go pray when there is a problem. Right now i am feeling yet uncertain. I do not know where to raise the $$ haiz really in deep ultimate shit man. Anyone can help me? haiz the road to success is so tough. In fact, part of the money was lent to another person to help him tide over his crisis.

Right now, i personally left only a few hundreds dollars for personal expenses. Really have no much idea on how to cope with the current problem. I am worry that my life will be drastically affected as the consequences for unable to pay is too great. No answer from anyone and no responses from anyone haiz that is the worst feeling to cope.

i dunnoe what to say to show my inner struggle but really it is unbearable sia ....

please show me a path to solve my problem please....

The Reverse for the Worst

It has been a long time since i last blog.

Recently, my currency earning did move up to positive of 6k. However, the recent strengthening of EUR/USD has eroded nearly all my positive and pushing me to the brink of negative. I believe the EUR will continue to strengthen to 1.58 and above; hence, i put quite a number of limits to reduce my losses. However, I did not put any limit for the GBP/JPY as i have decided to short in for a moderate term.

If things go for the worst, i shall be in great negative and given my partner continuous lack of cash, i believe i will be in deep shit as ever. Things are going real bad and tough. I guess i shall have to endure through another volatile week.

Haiz really damn sad and disappointed. my uni fee gone ...

Yet another losses

This few days saw a reverse after an intial of further profit of around 212 USD. The losses will mostly due to early hours of buying in that result in such tremendous losses; this was follwed by many other times of buying in too at the early morning that result in great losses.

Today, after coming back from camp, I was really disappointed as the limit i set for EUR/USD at 1.56 was not filled and the highest was at 1.5585(roughly). Although it looks like just a slight difference, in fact, the changes are huge.

I continue to hold on to my position on EUR/USD which had fallen to a low of 1.5467+ although my target was reduce to 1.5580, a down from the initial high sell limit of 1.56.

In addition, i long the USD/JPY. I realise a very special situation. Since both of my positions involve USD, either pirce goes up/down, the other will normally reverse in direction.

My conclusion is therefore to forbid from buying any currency that will clash with the same currency . Solution found to reduce such risk exposure is to unload either one of the position which reaches a certain level as determined so that out stand can be neutral or positive.

8.15am (US)- I can see that the relationship dilute and both seems to rise at the same time. Perhaps, while some similarity involves between these 2 couple currency, we can hold them awhile to verify the situation.

8.31am- The situation is getting more obvious that when one goes up, the other goes down. I guess I reallhy have to unload to maintain the neutral/positive stand of my situation.

8.40am- While both have rise up, it seems that their relationship does have effect but is minimum at the moment.

9.01am- Although the EUR/USD had risen quite steadily above the 1.55007, the USD/JPY still looks pretty steady.

9.22am- There are news that European names will be selling one of my currency which is EUR/USD. This is a bad sign and i can see that the dollar has fallen from a constant trying high of 1.51+ to now 1.550+ and going below 1.549 level. It seems that there will be a mega sell off slowly and i will be really in deep shit. However, i still decide to long in for now. This was reflective a growing back of USD/JPY to around 107.85+ level which had to threaten to go below 107.20+ level. It seems that everything is going to be slightly balanced but overall again the losses is set to increase once more.

9.28am- Right now the EUR/USD had fallen to below my ideal above 1.50+ level and it is set to go lower perhaps all the way to 1.5480+ and with that a great loss will be expected and a sudden fall is expected in near future. However, i will still long it. Also, this is reflective of a rise in USD/JPY to a once high of 107.85+ level after the lowering to 107.20 plus level.

9.31am- As expected the EUR/USD had fallen to 1.5486 level a sharp fall and is set to fall to below 1.5470 level. In the mean time the USD/JPY rises up to a high of 108.00 but struggling between the range to go below and up again. This is a powerful indicator of the relationship.

9.48am- Right now things looks more bleak although EUR/USD recovers back to around 1.5486+ level while the USD/JPY falls back to 107.87+, a sign of weakening and both currency has been holding for this relatively high position for long and a sudden fall will really wipe me out. Crisis: Unknown how long i can still endure this down period.

Well that is all for now ba......
I really need to re-coup the losses. How .... it is so disheartening...

Uncertain

Blogging today as usual. However, the level of fear, uncertainity carries on to bother me again. I wonder if i can really recoup most of the losses tml although i knew i really need to do so.

Disheartened; loss degeneration life

quite a few days since i blog

Things got worst. Losses hit over 6k on friday. However, late hours of last day of the week trading allowed the EUR/JPY to recover some of its sudden losses partly due to the technical fault of the system and i am back to losses of 3.91k still.

I have decided to set the sell limit at 166.740 maybe will increase to 166.750. Even if this is reached, it will not cancel all my losses. In fact the losses will still be above 2k. In the mean time, i will still venture into stocks but using a trailing stop loss to limit any potential losses. This is the new skill i learn today.

In fact, i am desperate for success. I have many things to pay for like future university fees and stuff but things are not looking good. My heart aches like hell each day, pondering if it will rise to the limit i set as if it does not, i will be in really big trouble. Now, i do not wish for large earnings, just small gains each day to fill up my losses.

Although it is saddening for me to trade all this, the worst thing is my NS life. Currently, i really cannot endure much longer and it is both tiring and annoying. To be frank, there is fear and i dread each day reporting back. At this point, i realise that my endurance and determination are weak. I cant seems to go through adversity. There are little things i have now and with the bleak future of my trading life, things can get much worst.

I really need help but every time when i do need, i realise that no one is there to assist me and none can really help me regardless of whether i help them before. Still, i am certain that i cannot give up and without choice have to endure.

Really feel like crying out as these few years are really tiring and hard to endure. Haiz

President RayOz.. the shattered hope.

First Day of Trading

Haiz first day of real trading is disastrous, firstly, the margin is limited.

Secondly, the price is just not right.

Haiz how should i go about doing it man!

there is losses of less than 1k though which is still very bad.

The Re-Birth of New Hope

It has been a long time since i pen down my feeling again. Many things happen this week. First of all, starting of the week is not so good as mood is bad as i was thinking of the little hope of starting my investment thingy. Now new things start to change as i finally found a funding but in fact it is a loan. i have transferred the loan to my another partner who will credit it into the account and if he runs away with the money, i will be in deep shit.

Ever since i start learning about the stock market, i realise how much i like it and perhaps if i fail and gone bankrupt, i will start all over again. In fact, my dream of becoming a millionaire seems far especially given the short time frame fight now. But neverthelss, i am not going to give up right now. Every small step counts and that is why i am here to stay.

In the mean time i had appeal to all three local university and i pinned my greatest hope on FASS. I appeal against the restriction in order to have greater freedom inmy choice of study in uni level. If i am not interested in the course, i will most likely not take it since it will not benefit me at all .

Guess that's all for now! Hope my investment thingy runs smooth and allow me to accumulate wealth especially for my uni tuition fee!

President RaYoz

The Falling System

Well just analyse my stock system and realise that it is getting from bad to worse each day. The estimate profit is around 1k plus which is the lowest ever since the creation of my system. haiz what to do sia.

in addition, tml i will soon open my trading account and soon it will be cashed with real $$ and after which i can start to trade and test my system... dun really feel excited because the market seems to go against me now sianz sia wat to do???


I guess i have to upgrade my system soon to prevent failing.

another chance

well , it has been a few days since everything settles down and perhaps i should really give up on this dream.

But then, everytime when i decides to give up, new glimpse of hope appear to me. When i hold onto it, it seems slippery and gone.

Should I or Should I not?

The Great Fall

Well suppose to type in my feeling yesterday night but was too depressed to actually type it all out and too tired too.

Firstly, yesterday i really drop the investment thingy with Mr X. It was after so long of preparation for like 3 months plus and also $$ when i take cab back home from cab or rush back from outside and scarifice really so much of my time and effort and just 1 confirmation everything is gone.

In fact, from the start, he has no ability to start it and i was foolish to lend him $$ for him to tide over his difficulty. In addition, there are times when false hope was given and i decided to wait and polish my skills again and again just to finally upset when everything was gone. I felt "cheated" and when i told him about the ending scenario he just said well must keep in contact.

I was in fury but hold back my anger for i wish to remain calm on this matter. One of my friend suddenly ponder and hold back the plan to work with me causing me in stress too. Although there is one person who called me and show interest in my investment partnership, it seems that i may not work out but still i do not wish to pin so much hope on it. but sometimes, people do just pin on their ideal project and the sadness is undescrible.

For my case, it is really freaky painful experience beacause imagine everday when you are back from camp and the first thing u do is to monitor everything with regards to stock and to realise that after 3 months of extreme hard work, everything is gone and worst still not back to square one but even far behind stuff. All the hopes, losses and dreams or aspiration just vanished . Solutions are gone but uncertainity and great damages remain. I felt so depressed, frustrated, sad and really so angrY!!

well perhaps that all till now



President RayOz

Investment Partnership

It has been a long time since i updated my blog again once more. Recently felt really sad and thus decided to again update my blog! btw suppose to update in the blog which is shared by Jamie and I but then i forget the link and password and the worst thing is she also forget lOlx so i guess i have to update here. lOng time no see her and her reply so if u see my BLog pls msg me ok!

First of all, i have received a sms from nithya i suppose and she is flying back to India and will be back in Dec which is a long time. Studies in Saint Francis Methodist School is a unique experience for him. Although I think the school management is disastrous and the teaching quality really cannot make it in many sense, i still find considerable number of nice and high quality teacher and the environment is great.

Somehow, i think that students from my this schools or perhaps from my class is especially hardworking and determined to succeed. Many have gone overseas to study and other came back to study in local university. It is quite an 'undescrible" experience because it seems so global kinda feeling.

Dunnoe y suddenly feel like there is a lot to write since it is year 2008 after a year plus of no updating.


Today, yet another disappointing note from Mr X who decided to cancel today’s meeting. The time for the fund to come in is still unknown and this is really a great psychological torment to me.

While I understand his predicament, the whole partnership has dragged from the initial start date of March to now ending of May without much definite start date. This is due to disagreement between much of the potential investors who perhaps has doubts on my credential.

I have been using the simulation programme for a long time and everything is fine and profitable. I was told that the simulation programme is exactly the same as the real trading condition, hence i guess my trading system is profitable... but still lack investors.

Have been really wanted to start soon but all this while things are not really smooth for this partnership but still i hold on to it and hope for the best to come. Sometimes, i really want to end this partnership with Mr X with a stern tone but then worry that I could not find other ppl to join me. It is so tiring after all to go thru all this.

Moreover, it is frustating to see each profitable trade and day with the end result of earning only virtual cash. This is so ..... haiz dunnoe how to describle lOlx..


University Admission

Until now, I have received 2 rejection letters from SMU and NTU, of which both stress on stiff competition. Well, i have really worked hard for my retake last year and is perhaps my best shot. I was thinking that even without the acceptance from local uni, i could progress with my investment thingy but now things look so bleak, lost a lot of things. Firstly, i postphone my taking of SAT in order to work on this partnership. In addition, i rejected many outing offers and dilligently spend my time examining the market condition, constantly trying to figure out a better trading system.

Every now and then, I have tried to put in a lot of effort and i am sure I am quite determined in achieveing what i aim for; but recently happening prove otherwise. I remain stagnant for so long despite so much effort put in.

Perhaps I have a wrong method of working hard or I was already on the wrong path?

Really tired now sia haiz.

Saw the news on Sichuan. it is really saddening to see so many people suffering out there and i suddenly tot if i could have start the investment and really earn $$, perhaps i can fork out $$ to assist them. Sometimes, life is so uncertain and perceived to be unfair.

To end, I will like to make some wishes:

I wish I wish I wish
I wish that the people affected by Sichuan earthquake will receive the best resources they need
I wish I wish I wish

I wish I wish I wish
I wish that my investment partnership will work out next week so that I can fulfill my dream of earning my first million before 20 years old
I wish I wish I wish

- President RayOz